Hopefull Phoenix

Hello Everyone! Okay, for starters, I am absolutely listening to my horoscope and not setting foot outdoors. (except for the tiny trip out to the mailbox--that was necessary, there was NETFLIX) So, here I am looking at the clock and realizing that I should get my flabby rear up off the bench and get dressed.... Meaning workout clothes you perv! I already look rather cute now.. But I don't want to go outside... Really I don't ! For one feeble excuse... the "service engine" light has been on again and it is freaking me out! When you're unemployed, the thought of mechanical bills can throw you straight to the nearest bar for a verrrrrry strong Margarita. And I can't go do that tonite, so here I sit. Well, I do have an impressive collection of workout videos...hmmm. dunno. Can't help thinking of feeble ex. Really do miss talking to him. Dammmit! I guess there were good things between us, but seriously? the anger and violent issue just tops the list of "wh...

It's 1:30 in the Morning and I am STILL so awake. Perhaps the blizzard 55 minute cardio session wasn't the greatest idea at 10pm. But what else does a single girl do on a Tuesday night without spending money? So, here I am - dying over blogs. Just finished with Live It, Love It. Practically had to run to the bathroom and pee... Would not have been nice on the recently upholstered bench I'm perched on. My neighbors must think I'm insane. Laughed hysterically. Well, like a hyena really, but you weren't here, thankfully. Were those too many commas? My spelling/punctuation dwindled in the wee hours. The gym is such a nice second home to have. You get to play with all sorts of toys and someone else cleans them up nice and pretty for the next day (wait, don't yell at me- I DO wipe down my machines!!!!) BTW, that brings me to a peeve of mine. One that should have people thrown in dungeons... Not wiping down machines or benches after you sweat or drizzle all over them! ...

Part of my renovation project extends to my home. Redecorating with a zero budget is oh so much fun! Tonight I had the brilliant idea of hanging curtains. Or so I thought It started with one curtain left over from the store. It's a rich red and a bit overwhelming for my tiny space but I figured that I could use the color. So, away to the window I went. Then one thing led to another, and having no curtain rod led me to rethink the red curtain idea. But there WAS a beautiful gold fabric. Thumb tacks are my favorite way to hang anything. And I do mean, Anything! Unfortunately, One side is lopsided, there is a curve to consider. They hang a bit too short on the ends and the second fabric pieces(plum) just needed help. 2 hours and countless dropped tacks later, it's up. Sort of. Because now I am picking apart the thousand reasons it should not even be up there. GRRRR.... Although it does add a bit of drama to my room. So, I'll leave it up for a few days, perhaps I'll come a...

Hello World! So, I'm sitting here in Michigan watching the rain come down and trying to find a new job. Such a fun task with the rest of the state doing the same! At least it keeps my brain from thinking about my ex. We were together for two years when he dropped the breakup bomb. No, I did NOT take that very well. I was in love and had thought it was mutual. Needless to say, it wasn't. Found out all sorts of interesting facts about his 'friendships' later. Sigh.... How do you truly know when it's right to trust someone with your heart? I have this excellent habit of choosing the exactly wrong person for that. I am very loyal and devoted and when I do fall, it's hard as h"". Now it's over, I found my own place and when I get my own job with matching paycheck, I will be better. Til then, it's unemployment roulette... Must go for now. Car is demanding attention now. Service Engine Light went on again. Had it looked at two weeks ago and here it i...

Hello world! This is the beginning episode of "Hopefull Phoenix". It is a little journal of a heart getting her life back together. I know, the name is a bit strange, but I kept thinking of the Phoenix for the past few weeks. A mythical bird who willing put itself in the fires of destruction to be reborn better than ever. That's how I feel. (or how I intend to feel/become)... hence, the Hopefull part. Who am I? Good question. A 41 year old designer who just broke the remaining ties to a veeeerrry volatile ex-boyfriend. We had a business together and well, he just wasn't as trustworthy of my heart as I thought. So, here I am, unemployed, single, freaked out (mildly), and working on who I am now. This might be a long post today, sorry to all. Feel like I need to get this out! So I will break this up into two parts today. I don't like reading long posts myself, so why should I subject you guys to that? Farewell til later! Hopefull Phoenix